I’ve been doing some serious de-cluttering around Chez Kaufmak. Over the last couple of weekends I have cleaned my kids bedrooms with a ruthlessness that I didn’t think I possessed. Old toys, old clothes, strange random bits of paper are all history now. It isn’t stopping with the kids either. I’ve ben through my closet, my comic books, my books. The scythe was not to be denied. All of this new space, this new clean house has also spilled over to my, what is it, exactly, creative life? writing life? Whatever. I realize that some cleaning needs to happen in this arena as well.
I’ve always felt like a bit of a dilettante when it comes to writing and other creative endeavors. I like writing the blogs but I think about writing other things too. The idea of screenplay has intrigued me for years as has a novel of some sort. Of course I’m trained as an academic and I do like researching and writing in a strictly non-fiction sort of way. And that is just the writing side of things. I sometimes think of doing more stand-up comedy. I’ve been enjoying the hell out of doing the podcast. I would like to make improvements/tweaks to that to make it a better product. The one major drawback to doing the podcast is that it reminds me how much I miss teaching.
Speaking of being an academic and working in higher education, the killer is that I like my job and I want to do more stuff with that too. I went to a presentation the other day and the focus was on how to recruit and engage more students in doing research as undergraduates. It was a great discussion, but very science heavy. Getting students in a lab and directing them dovetails nicely with the natural sciences, but how do we get students outside of the hard sciences equally engaged? And that is just the tip of the iceberg. I went to a documentary screening about urban gardens in Detroit. What else can we do to revitalize our cities? We can’t nor should we make all reaches of a city into a pasture.
Which of course leads to politics, especially local politics. There are so many things, SO MANY THINGS just in Chicago to want to affect real change. An elected school board, curbing gun violence, homelessness, preserving the lake shore are just a few of the items that make me want to get involved.
And then there is just fun stuff. I would love to get back to playing guitar in some fashion. I enjoy playing Magic and would like to get better at that too, or at least win a match or two during Friday Night Magic.
You get the point. This is just the “me” stuff too, this isn’t even bringing in being a parent and a husband which are pretty awesome. I wish I could be laser-focused on one particular thing, but that just isn’t me. I wish I could just let some things go, not be nagged by the feeling of “What If?” or “Why Not?” I just can’t get it out of my head sometimes, that I need to finish something I started. That to work and try, to try and fail is not only ok, but rewarding in its own right. (Geez, I didn’t even get to physical fitness goals.) I think I have some priorities set, have put some ideas and such away after trial and error, or lack of desire. If I could design a perfect day it would involve a good dose of writing(lord knows what though), some teaching and some kind of activism. What do you think that is filed under?